Something happened when I turned my life over to God. I don’t remember the day, but I do remember the conversation. “Okay God, take my life, my thoughts, my heart, my all. I’ll do whatever you say. I’ll go wherever you send me. However I can serve you Lord.” That began a quiet journey of paying attention, studying, waiting and getting ready. At that time, it was just between me and God. I surrendered. Totally.
Today, flights are confirmed, tickets are purchased, immunizations are complete, and plans are underway for my first short-term missions trip….to Kenya. Actually, it’s not my trip. It’s God’s trip and I’m going with Him. God is my new boss….and He’s called me out of retirement. Actually, He never calls us to retirement. He calls us to be productive our whole lives. So, it’s with a humble heart that I get to go to work…what an awesome honor to go to work for my new boss. And I didn’t even have to apply or interview. He already knew all about me. When I was filling out the application to become an International Training Specialist with LIFE International over two years ago, I could see how God had been training me all along. It was eye opening. OH! That’s why I had foreign exchange students living with me. OH! That’s why I flew for the airlines for Pan Am and Northwest Orient, visiting different cultures and lands. OH! That’s why I took that test to learn that my strengths were centered around compassion and teaching. OH! That’s why I had recently spent a month in India. Hmmmm….it was a course in LIFE….and God was my instructor all along. Little did I know at the time that I was “in training” for His greater purposes.
Now that I’ve “signed on”, it seems so simple. It’s kind of like this….an apple tree doesn’t struggle to grow apples, it only struggles when it tries to grow a pear. All those times of struggling, of “trying” to fit in, of wondering where I belong, of forging my own path, could have been simplified had I just surrendered long ago. For some reason, though, I didn’t accept Jesus into my life until I was fifty-two….on February 2, 2000…and I didn’t fully surrender for another eight years. There was a lot of bitterness that had to be worked through. There was a lot of learning that had to happen on the heart level. It was an “inside job”. God is the master of “inside jobs”….He wanted my heart and He worked hard and waited a long time to receive it. Today, He has my heart, simply and completely. I love my new boss. And He loves me. It’s not usually okay to fall in love with your boss…but in this case, it’s essential!
Today, my outlook, my overview, my environment, my platform, my life is different. It’s all forward thinking, forward moving, forward bound. Here’s an analogy. I purchased a new laptop recently and had to call the tech support office to assist me with set up. I gave the technician “remote access” to my computer and as I sat back and watched her move the cursor around to accomplish the tasks, I loved it! She had just taken total control of my whole computer and it was so simple! As I sat and watched, for many hours, I was reminded that this is how God is working in my life too. Just take total control of my whole life, God. I’ll just submit and watch you perform miracles in my life and in the lives of those around me. Here’s an example….I am currently co-leading the Forgiven and Set Free Bible Study for post-abortive women. A friend of mine summed it up beautifully….”we have been invited to have a front row seat to watch and help foster the transformation that happens when people allow Jesus to rule their hearts”. It’s not me…it’s God…who works in the lives of His people. The Bible is FULL of these stories. I get to be His assistant, His student, His trainee. I get to be on His staff, in His Department, in His company, in His organization, in His forward-moving enterprise.
This new job is the best job I’ve ever had….and my new boss is the best boss I could ever imagine. Thank you Lord for hiring me, for training me, for preparing me to be in your service. I accept. I obey. I submit.